Today i feel impressively depressed.
The people that know me will think that this is unusual
The people who REALLY know me will probably have seen this coming, as a lot is getting to me recently.

My biggest problem is my friends. I feel a conspiracy coming on, as out of fifteen friends that I tried to meet up wth over the last week, two took me up. The two were Gina and Rachie, and we three hung out for a while, but then i was summarily kicked out because of the perfectly legitimate reason of Rachie's mom getting ill. Now i'm not mean or callous, but i felt let down, and bacause it was legitimate i couldn't blame anyone. EVERYONE out of the fifteen had good reasons. I couldn't argue with them, but i tried again, with the same people and with others. Now having been turned down for the thirtyth(ish) time now i feel really down. I'm paranoid, but that doesn't make me wrong.

I feel the excessively deep need to hurt someone, but because at heart i love everyone i'm really stymied.

Another far minor problem is the people i Role Play with, I'm choreagraphing an awesome fight, and this woman starts posting, she frells over several possible plot twists and ruins one particular story advancement that i really wanted to have. But her out of character stuff really annoyed me, as she lectured me on naming mythical beasts. I am not an expert on mythology, but i'm damn close, and i was leaving out the names for a reason. but enough geeking out, its time for me to piss off. Night all x